i feel how i am accruing,
the body that is not these cells but the place cells like
these
will take life and flow away
the empress is everywhere, she never had any clothes
neither did we til this habit of hiding and lying
arose, and now soon
the demise of our species
part of me looks forward to the dissolution of flesh wrecked
by time
and deception, but mostly, the release
what is the larger thing that this life is not but just the
placeholder
for the process of. my life form a cellstuff passing away
what is the feel of the feelless pattern
all our sense words are nonsense
to describe the eluctable, numinous, sensuous
oblivion of intensity/surrendered/releasing/
effortlesspeace.
i feel the clouds smiling at sunrise. which is really
earthspin
momentary alignment sun earth horizon line really a curve
glad for the fireinthesun and the deep ineluctable
spinofearth
the lightintheskythroughthenakedarmsofwinter
smokefromneightborschimneywhispingoffinlightbreeze
i always think of ants, how a curve in the tablecloth will
feel like a mountain steep
that is how we are, these insurmountables are
tableclothfolds
in the greater pattern that we are just stuff passing through
to make
i heavemyloadofearthlife over this moundofexperience huff
but i am also inconsequent, also the fiber of being, passing
through in the sewingmachine of gaia, just a breathhumripple
baskinginmorningsun, a smallglintorfleckofblueinthelargerpainting
important,insignificant,hereandgone,thegiddyrapidsofgaiandelighting
flashinginthelargerriversolargeitisfathomlesspouringintotheevenlargermorefathmolessgalacticocean