ethical lacunae: worldwish

i.
in the phone conversation
she speaks of liking silences
[when the person we're supposed to be helping
and haven't
is flummoxed to find euphemisms
for their disappointment]

"liking" here means
savoring someone's discomfiture--
which is something
that is ethically co
m
promising

ii.
last night i watched the new star trek
on hd - first time watching on that type of machine -
and i knew i was lost forever to the bright
deep beauty
on the other side of the wall
where it is still possible to be gallant, just,
and make a difference

i will walk through, doubtless

iii.
is this better than liking terse walls of silences,
to prefer
escape?

iv.
the deeper worldwish
in the heart of me
is for right-here-breath,
staying-with,
abiding

the notsilent silence of tidal windtreebreathing
the notsilent peace of skin-in-earth